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Unless you are capable of saying NO without feeling a fraction of guilt, your YES is not conceived in true freedom.

toxicity is toxic – and is painful

Toxic workplace

Have you ever worked in a toxic workplace? I have.

Interestingly, the problem wasn’t with my colleagues or boss. It was another department with whom we shared the office. It was their culture that made me sick. The tone of the language around me 8 hours a day made me physically unwell: it was too contradictory to my values. Each day I was dragging myself to work with a knot in my stomach, feeling nauseous, hoping one day somehow it would turn better.

Then I realised I couldn’t change them. And I didn’t want to give up my values.

It has become my shortest job.

Toxic positivity

There is no healing without seeing and acknowledging the bad stuff.

Therefore, seeing only the positive means denying the truth. It is hurtful.

However, I would be careful to call out someone’s toxic positivity.

They might be using it to soothe their own pain. I have been there. I had times in my life when clinging to looking at the “bright side of life” was the key to my emotional survival. It wasn’t others telling me, but I was telling myself.

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emotional abuse impacts our physical health

Emotional abuse impacts our physical health

“There’s a problem we must talk about.” and I was about to collapse. I couldn’t imagine what I could have done wrong.
 
Childhood patterns emerged from my subconscious.
 
Leaving a toxic person, unless we’re well-grounded inside, is far from easy. However, there are occasions when it is simply impossible. For example, when that abusive, toxic person is our parent.
 
The extra problem with it is that as children, we cannot recognise and connect the dots. Also, how we handle the emotional abuse when we grow into it is shaped by what we see from others. At least, this is my observation. I wasn’t lucky. My “role model” who showed me how to handle emotional abuse was a fully submissive one. Therefore, I had a pattern of giving in to the abuser to follow. While inside, I felt it wasn’t all right at all. I knew something was off but couldn’t understand it. And I was unable to handle the controversy – how the heck to I dare to question both my parents -, and the abuse itself.
 
My body was honest. Now I can see. Stomach aches and nausea every morning when I had to go to school. The feeling of inadequacy, that whatever I do, I cannot be good enough. I cannot be good enough, neither for them nor anyone else. Nausea still sometimes knocks on my door when I find myself in similar thinking and emotional patterns.
 
My body was honest. My mind was rationalising, “they are my parent and always (must be) right”. Then there were others, those who said “it’s just simply how they are” and “this is how they show their love”. And of course, there was barely anyone who believed how they indeed acted and behaved behind closed doors. It was unimaginable for those who only see their “nice face”, never the rage, the belittling and deliberately hurtful words.
 
My body was honest. Three times I was signed up for appendicitis surgery. I was presenting all the symptoms but having perfect blood results. Thanks to all the doctors how did not make the surgery. However, I was still rationalising: “I must be too sensitive, unable to handle stress”, blaming myself for not handling it all well.
 
It wasn’t my fault. Now I know. Abuse is never ok.
 
My body was honest. And still, it is. After a long healing journey, now I am mostly able to handle stress without switching into fight/flight/freeze mode. Mostly.
 
Last Thursday I was told, “There’s a problem we must talk about.” I thought I would collapse then and there in severe humiliation and immediately started questioning myself and him what I had done wrong? The instincts from my childhood kicked in. Which shows I am not as ok as I would like to be. Especially that he was joking, just like he had done many previous times. I still got scared that day.
 
My body was honest last Thursday.
 
Listen to your body!
 
Emotional abuse impacts our physical health.

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Family relationships

Relationships within a family is a tricky thing.

Especially if it’s loaded with parenting.

For a first look, it seems to be pretty easy: an equal partnership between the spouses (“co-workers”) and parents guiding their children (kind of “leader – subordinate”).

However, as time passes by, children are growing, both types of relationships need to adjust to changes occurring.

First of all, we all change over time, at least a bit. So, our partner likely needs to adjust to us, just as we need to change to fit them. Also, the challenges as a team of co-workers in parenting we face, well, let’s say, might get more unpredictable as our children grow into their teenage years. It means that our usual problem-solving methods might not work anymore, i.e. we need to change.

Secondly, as our children grow, we try to give them more choices to make and through this, they can learn to make decisions and bear consequences.

We must never forget,

the day will come when they leave to have their own life, even their own family.

We cannot stay forever beside them and make all the decisions for them like when they were toddlers. We should not even think of that. The best we can do is to nurture them up to be responsible adults. And then let them go. Although they are forever in our hearts, only temporary guests in our home. Even if temporary, in this case, means two decades 😊.

Thirdly, our relationship with our parents is changing. First, we left their home. Whether they let us go or still cling to us, we need to find our place. Having a spouse likely challenges the connection with our parents. Now there is another person in our lives we listen to. Some parents can get pretty upset about losing control over their children’s lives. Then, when our children are born, our parents become grandparents. And it can open up another Pandora’s box over parenting (ours vs theirs and who knows it better), boundaries (they’re first and foremost are OUR children, and, by the way, our parents’ grandchildren), and a lot of other unexpected issues. Not every grandparent is an angel. Unfortunately, some would love to control our family.

Drawing that firm line in the sand can be a real emotional struggle for us. Those couples who stick together in it, I believe, are more likely to succeed. And it is another challenge to their relationship as a couple.

How does your “co-worker team in parenting” cope with it?

 

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Self-sabotage – i.e. why do you doubt yourself?

Have you ever found yourself doubting yourself and acting against your own interest?

When is it 100% clear what you should, need, MUST do, yet you just simply cannot make the decision?

Is there a recurring pattern to these situations?

I would like to introduce “self-sabotage”.

A usual excuse we use, even to ourselves, – and yes, we believe it – is the “I’ll wait to see how it unfolds”.

Yes, there are times when waiting is the right thing to do. But it must be a DECISION to wait.

Including a deadline when we will RECONSIDER our primary decision to wait.

Without a deadline it is PROCRASTINATION.

Sounds like a very valid excuse, isn’t it? And we can get annoyed if people around us – those who really love us and put OUR INTEREST first – dare to share their concerns about our indecisiveness. They point to the fact that our “let’s see how it unfolds” is not a decision, it is self-sabotage. We lie to ourselves. Their feedback is like a smack in our face.

Well, it is time to face it: most of us do it. I do it.

You know what?

Give a deadline to yourself!

Make a decision WHEN you will act and WHAT you will do if the issue does not solve itself.

Yes, the “WHAT” must be decided now.

THEN the pressure of making the decision will be enough.

 

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What is love then?

Here we pondered about what love is not.

It is time to look into the deep and dig out a few possible answers for the question:

What is love?

Love is a DECISION. To love someone even if they don’t deserve it. Despite their actions. While keeping  healthy BOUNDARIES.

Love is ACTION. To go that extra mile for them. It must be a FREE choice. Free from ANY influence – outer or even inner!

Love is an APPROACH. How we turn to someone. How we see them. Whose interest do we take into consideration: ours or theirs? Can we act selflessly, even to the point of suffering disadvantage?

Love is LISTENING. The ability to shut up and let the other talk.

Love is CARING. Even if we disagree with their choices.

Love is HONESTY. Sharing our thoughts, our doubts, our questions. Yes, we can share our concerns about the consequences of their choices.

LOVE is PRESENCE. So when they fall, we stand beside them so they can lean on us while pulling themselves up. Because they know: even if we sometimes get frustrated with their decisions, indecisiveness, procrastination, seeing them slowly ruining themselves through these decisions, we are still on their side.

What is love?

If their world falls apart, we will still be there for them.

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What is (not) Love?

“What is love? Baby, don’t hurt me Don’t hurt me no more” (some of you might remember the song from the 1990s).

So, what IS love?

Well, let’s make a firm line in the sand – what it is not.

Love IS NOT a feeling. Yes, when we are “in love” we do have some physical symptoms. Physical. Physiological. Symptoms.

Love IS NOT the lack of healthy boundaries. We can love someone and still be able to say no.

Love IS NOT saying YES all the time. But what prevents us from when saying NO would be the best choice at that time?

Whose interest do we put first? And do we do it voluntarily or do we feel coerced into saying yes – even when we indeed want to say no. We just simply can’t.

Love IS NOT allowing the person who has been exploiting us continue to do so because we feel unable to put up some boundaries in the situation. This is the very opposite to love. It is not loving them, it is self-loathing – ourselves.

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A dog will never turn into bacon – i.e. who am I indeed?

Not long ago I faced the big question: who am I?

You might wonder why. So, here is a short story.

The last few years created a huge shift in me. Moving across the globe with my family and adjusting to the new norms and language not only brought hidden skills to the surface, but also shaped me significantly.

The robust diploma course in coaching was a painful eye-opener: I had a picture of myself, what I was like, and it turned out to be utterly false. I spent hours contemplating “what’s wrong; why does the test say I am introverted when I have always been an extrovert?”

A dog will never turn into bacon, it cannot be real!

Then it clicked…

Who am I indeed?

I am not changing into something new but turning back to who I was meant to be. I have been taking off the uncomfortable, protective garments. Shields, swords, axes, and breastplates which have shaped my thinking and behaviour were there to provide a more controllable, seemingly safer environment. Seeing everyone and everything as a threat had been eating up my energy, turning my focus away from inner growth and creating a false reality: that if I can control everything, I will be safe.

And now, leaving these behind one by one, the real me is coming forth.

Who am I? I am me.

The dog is not turning into bacon.

The bacon-shaped dog is turning back into being a dog.

(I used the word-by-word English translation of the Hungarian saying “Kutyából nem lesz szalonna” because I believe the English saying “Once a thief, always a thief” does not accurately portray the message I wanted to convey with this story.)

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Tears (of manipulation) i.e. how are your boundaries?

We are seemingly prone to give in when we see tears. I wonder why?

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Children have seemingly endless creativity to convince, coerce, persuade their parents to change that NO into a YES.

Those crocodile tears do not necessarily flow like a river because they are hurt, sometimes they just simply do not want to accept that NO as an answer. I was too a kid once 😊

Tears seem to work most of the time.

Even when adults cry for the same reason.

We are seemingly prone to give in when we see tears.

I wonder why we give up our boundaries so easily?

I do not know for sure, but my guess is that our subconscious pulls out a formula that drives us to give in.

Even if it is about nothing else but trying to push those boundaries. Which adults do too. However, they usually do it very consciously.

Tears can manipulate us to say YES when we want to say NO.

Sticking to our NO is tricky because we need to do two important things. And we must do both:

  1. We need wisdom to determine if those tears are genuine or manipulative.
  2. If the latter we must believe that keeping our choice of NO
  3. will do no harm and
  4. it does not mean lack of love.

Sometimes our NO originates in our self-care – which is paramount for our own wellbeing.

Other times it is for their benefit (just think of bringing up children). It can be good in the short term, but mostly it is good for the long term. Even if it is painful now.

When we say NO we teach the other person (whether a child or an adult) as well:

  1. By “enforcing” them to respect our boundaries they can exercise self-control.
  2. As role models we show it is ok to say NO, teaching them not to be afraid of setting boundaries.

If we love them, we must take on healthy confrontations with them in order to teach them about boundaries.

Love without boundaries is not love.

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Resilience journey #9 – be utterly selfish: forgive others and leave your pain behind

So, how to let go of all those past offences that still keep on bothering us?

I believe the breathing technique is just like a band aid, it helps at that immediate moment, but it does not provide a long term solution.

I see

the pain originated in all these grievances

as backpacks full of rocks we carry on our back daily.

They slow us down, steal our energy, divert our focus – we need to get rid of them.

We must learn to leave our bags behind.

Before we start complaining about how badly some others have treated us, let’s take a look at ourselves from an outsider’s perspective. How many times have we deliberately or accidentally hurt others? With the tone of our voice, with a degrading remark, by not listening carefully to them.

Maybe it is time to reconsider our “greatness”, and start planning to ask for their forgiveness. A simple “I am sorry for what I said the other day” would do.

We might be surprised what changes it can bring in them!

Recognise: we again changed how we react – we may have left the scene of confrontation feeling victorious, this was the “norm”, but now we humble ourselves and admit we were wrong.

How would it feel if someone did this to us

asking for our forgiveness for their wrongdoings?

Of course, a positive answer for our intention to gain forgiveness is not expected.

We should never believe that everyone will forgive us everything, it’s just simply not the case. However, the good news is that

we did our part in seeking reconciliation and restoration,

and it’s now their turn. Which means, we did what we could, and

now we can let it go.

We can leave behind our guilt about those offences we committed against others. This was another backpack 😉. We can leave this one because

it is their choice whether they forgive us or not.

And if they choose not to forgive us, it’s their decision with its own consequences: they are going to carry their own backpack containing their own offences.

So, how to deal with our own offences backpack, how to leave it on the kerb?

Forgiving those who have hurt us, even if they do not ask for forgiveness. For our own sake!

It our choice to forgive or not, but when we forgive, we can leave the extra weight and pain we are carrying behind.

Forgiveness is a decision, not a feeling.

When we declare that we forgive, we make the first step to re-write our attitude towards that situation and that person. As it is rooted deep, it will take time to alter our instant reactions.

Old attitudes will try to sneak back at least a few times, demanding attention and the refocussing on the pain we suffered when we were hurt. Now, we can simply reject this desire by repeating to ourselvesbut I have forgiven”.

Although it is a process, the time will come when we do feel forgiveness: the relief of not carrying the backpack of stones, the feeling of freedom from pain, guilt and resentment.

The most beautiful part of it is that

we do not need them to forgive them.

We do not need to tell them, we talk to ourselves: it is an inner process within us.

And because of this we can deal with the pain we suffered from those who have already died, or who we are no longer in contact with.

We just shout out our decision to forgive, and then stick to it. It will bring us joy.

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Resilience journey #8 – if I’m offended … I still have control

Many might think that emotional conflicts are more likely to happen in households, but they are widely prevalent in workplaces as well. Being reprimanded for things that are outside our control or are not our job assignment, experiencing others pouring out their own frustration onto us, a boss not listening to us but jumping into presuppositions about what we are saying (but we are saying what we think!), and many more.

When we know who we are and know how to control our emotions in heated situations to ensure they do not take over (breath!) we can dodge many of these fights.

We come to understand that most of these outbursts are not about us. 

The teenager having a tantrum is, I believe, just seemingly unhappy with us (the boundaries we set up for them).

What really bothers them is the feeling of incapability and hopelessness.

At least this is how I remember my teenage years. It is true for adults as well 😉: every outburst we have represents our inner frustration, the fact that we have no control over what’s happening to or around us.

What we do have control over though is our reactions: while a tantrum likely won’t solve the problem, running away to a quiet place and calming ourselves down, breathing slowly, can highly improve our chances of finding a rational answer.

When we erupt like a volcano it is never about the other person we pour it out onto. It is solely about us. 

So when someone else is acting like a “2-year-old having a tantrum” what should we do? Tap their head and leave them alone to settle down 😄.

Is it about us? No: the underlying issue might be but the emotional upheaval “add-on” has nothing to do with us. And, as we discussed, it is useless to engage in a conflict like this, so let’s provide them an opportunity to have another go at solving the issue later, in a respectable manner.

This leads to quite a painful area:

If I am offended, it’s my problem.

It shows that I need to work on myself.

It took me many months to accept this, so I do not expect anyone to swallow it easily.

On the other hand, I found this one of the most helpful guidelines.

  • If we take offence and the feedback we have been given is valid, it means we need to improve.
  • If we take offence and it is not valid, then we need to figure out why we took offence when we shouldn’t have. Quite simply, if it is not valid we just should shake it off, and move on: it is not about us, it is about them as they outpour their inner frustrations onto us.

Even if it sounds logical and clear, it is not always easy to do. However,

the less offence we take on, the more time, energy, and motivation we have left to use for other positive things.

Every situation where we get emotionally hurt can deeply affect us not only mentally, but also physically. When it can push us into fright/fight/freeze mode it will trigger its physiological symptoms (elevated heartbeat and blood pressure, more frequent but shallow breathing, etc). To stop this, we need to get our “brain” back by deep, slow breathing.

However,

every time we recall these painful events, the symptoms come back, we re-live the situation, emotionally and physically.

Which means, every time we ponder upon past hurts we wound ourselves again, and again, and again – and it all has a negative effect on our bodies and mind.

That’s why we should learn to let these things go, to deliberately avoid recalling them and learn how to deal with them when the unwanted memories appear in our mind.

Resilience journey #9 – be utterly selfish: forgive others

 

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